To me they are all the same,
With their backlash and their hate
From everything I create.
With my wits and my mind,
My conscience tells me all the time
To stop with this nonsense!
Act more mature!
Then I wake up just to make sure
That it was only a dream,
A silly little show,
Telling me what I should already know...
About you, the Infantile Man,
The one Fate could not stand,
The one unkind words are spoken about,
The one who makes my mind shout
With frustration and shame,
Once again, it's all the same.
Until something changes,
This situation never will
And still...
I wait for the day
When my mind will finally let you stay.
It is because of what I've been through for the past week here at Shepherd. For one thing, my boyfriend is beginning to have a major "issue" with his family, and it doesn't make any sense to me. Here's why:
From what I've heard thus far, his parents have been pestering him about things that shouldn't matter. For example, my boyfriend called me the other night asking if he could see me. He needed to get "out of his house" and away from his family. When I asked him about it, what he told me was staggering. He had apparently cornered his sister about his stolen dvds (since his sister kept stealing them while he was away) and she became defensive on the issue. So much so, in fact, that his father interrupted and defended HER by accusing him of stealing his sister's belongings (which isn't true, I suppose?).
Anyway, his father eventually told him, "You got what you wanted, now get back in your room!" after Terry was done asking his sister about the dvds. Now mind you, Terry is 24 years old; he is an adult. For his father to be commanding him to "get back in (his) room," is delusional, in my opinion. What parent (besides his father and/or mother) treats his or her son like a two year old when the person is actually a full-fledged adult?
Personally, his parents' issues do not make any sense to me. Sure, it is quite obvious that Terry still lives with his parents. Given that fact, I can see and understand his parents' argument. However, there comes a time when the parents need to stand back and let things go. I know I do not have much room to talk, but when my boyfriend (who is 24 years old) is using Shepherd as an "escape," there is a problem; a huge problem.
Sadly enough, that is only ONE aspect of my interesting week at Shepherd. Once again, if I could write about my experiences at Shepherd so far, I could probably fill a book. Hell, I could probably sell it and make plenty of money from it. After all, who wouldn't want to read about my inner thoughts concerning this crazy university? That's exactly what I thought.
And so the confusion continues.
1. I managed to pass almost all of my classes.
2. I started dating a guy who I'd known for over seven years!
3. I went to Carlisle, PA., to watch a car show.
4. I lost weight.
5. I spent more time with dogs than with other humans.
6. I bought myself three mp3 players.
7. I walked a record seven miles on the C&O Canal!
8. I learned how to use most of the equipment in the Wellness Center.
9. I managed to lose a friend and make an enemy at the same time.
10. I watched more television at home than I ever did at Shepherd.
11. I have improved my drawing ability, at least, I'd like to think so.
12. I have lost track of wrestling storylines and am happier because of it.
13. I have watched a total of ten football games since returning home and have listened to many others while sitting here in front of my computer.
14. I have only had one head cold to date this year.
15. What do you know? I managed to date somebody for a total of six months!
***8****
Predictions: 2010
1. I will have the Devil as my professor.
2. My boyfriend will try some silly stunt this year.
3. I will continue dating my boyfriend (at least I hope).
4. My sister will get the scratch post (for her cats) that she has desired for the longest time.
5. I will eat more horrible food at the Dining Hall.
6. I will freaking pass my classes if it kills me!
7. I will cause this computer to finally say goodbye to the world.
8. My stepmother will give me the silent treatment sometime in the future.
9. I will get to eat oreo cookies, get my hair cut and buy a new pair of sneakers.
10. My hair will continue to grow until it touches the floor-or something like that.
***8****
My predictions for Wrestling: 2010
1. DX will somehow, someway split up through one of the members turning heel.
2. The Undertaker will slowly become the next immortal wrestler to grace the WrestleMania squared circle.
3. RVD will make his comeback in the world of wrestling.
4. Vince McMahon will wrestle Bret Hart, or compete with him in some way.
5. Bret Hart will return and will resign his contract (if he's smart).
6. WWE Raw ratings will go through the roof this year.
7. More deaths will occur.
8. Mickie James will leave the WWE if the mockery doesn't stop.
9. Shane McMahon will make his return to wrestling.
10. Linda McMahon will lose her fight for the Senate-if she hasn't done so already.
In other news, Rufus has had two surgeries to date. One to stitch him up (after a freak accident) and the other to correct the original stitch work. Yea, poor Rufus has had a difficult time of things. That's for certain.
Anyway, I am once again sorry I haven't updated this journal. I've been very busy working on final projects and papers. So, do you blame me for focusing on them just a little more than this journal? Hopefully you do. Lol. If not, then I do not know what to tell you.
And I have not written a single word of my stories since sometime last year. Hopefully that will change here soon. I just hope.
Well, I'm out of here for now. Later.
-Alliegirl4life
With your eyes closed,
Imagining a world so far away.
You clinch your fists
Into a fit of rage,
As your mind continues to race
With horrid thoughts from your past.
Although you try imagining your escape
With so much hope
That your thoughts slowly disappear,
And a smile appears where a frown once was,
Until there is nothing to smile about anymore.
Then your imaginary world gradually fades into the darkness
That surrounds you.
Into your eyes,
All I see is darkness?
I cannot see light,
Or hope, or love.
Instead I see nothing at all.
Just two dark holes focusing on me.
Or what used to be me,
Until your ability to corrupt destroyed what was left
Of my soul.
But still I continue to look, to stare,
In fear that I won't see what I need to see
To survive what remains
Of the future to come.
28. If a guy walks up to you and starts talking about demonic possession upon meeting you for the first time, beware!
29 No penis is bigger than a guy's forearm (thanks to Sex Rules for this supposed fact).
30. And if you do see any bigger than the above, RUN!!!
31. DC squirrels are friendlier than most family pets.
32. Guys are infatuated with squirrels and other furry animals?
33. Guys like to drive on the SHOULDER of the road...
34. All guys like cars and women. Period. (Unless he's gay...And if that's the case, I can't help you. Sorry).
35. When a guy is silent and he's sitting next to you, he's thinking about what he wants to do to you.
36. To a guy, a bed might be more than JUST a bed.
37. Guys like to play the "Pity" game especially if it works more than once.
38. Apparently, if a guy is messing around with himself, he's simply readjusting his pants....Or something like that.
39. Guys get bored while watching movies.
40. All guys play video games until their eyes pop out of their skulls.
41. All guys spend their money until they have none left.
42. If a guy sees a new video game, he automatically buys it without considering the consequences.
43. Guys like kitty cats. Period.
44. If you are in a relationship, expect a lot of phone calls from your significant other.
45. Most guys apparently expect you to pay for things they want.
46. When a guy gets the "munchies," beware. This means he wants you to pay for his food consumption.
47. Guys can eat a ton of food!
48. When a guy looks at you, it means he's thinking about you.
49. Guys take time to learn CERTAIN things....
50. All guys talk to their significant others about MARRIAGE five months into a relationship and beyond.
What a strange day it has been! From waking up at nine o'clock this morning without so much as an alarm to doing okay on my Spanish test, this day has surprised me. Although there were a few aspects that haven't. Namely this minor "situation" I'm involved in right now. Come on, you know what it is, and I'm not going to repeat myself either. All I'm going to say is when my boyfriend calls me tonight, I am going to confront him about a few things. That should be a bundle of fun...Not.
Grr...Why must things be so damned complicated? All I want is for things to be simple, but I guess I cannot have that now can I? And why do I always attract the weird people? Why can't the person I attract make sense? I mean, I've been trying to figure HIM out for the past two months or so, and have I succeeded? Well, I'm writing in this journal, aren't I? So, there you go; there's your answer.
And so continues the saga of this stupid, pathetic situation. Will I ever get the closure I deserve?
Only time will tell the tale.
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:7 Days Away: "The Flame."
I just finished crying in my dorm room...And I don't know why.
Maybe it's because I'm afraid I'm falling and won't be able to recover once I do. I know that doesn't sound convincing considering that I'm already in this relationship, but it's true. I am honestly afraid I'm falling for him, and there's nothing I can do to stop it. Seriously, I literally cried after he left tonight. I know; it's rather pathetic of me, right? Crying over somebody I'm already with. Why would I do something crazy like that, especially after everything I've been through in the past? I wish I could answer that question, but I can't because I really do not know the answer.
Even after everything that has happened so far.
Maybe I'm afraid of losing him. Once again, it sounds rediculous, but something is telling me to "keep an eye on the time," so to speak. He even brought up this one girl we both talk to, and I asked him if he'd ever consider dating somebody like her. To this, he simply said, "Probably not. Again, too much in common," since the two of them would have too much in common to "make a relationship work." Is it just me, or does something seem wrong with that whole insinuation? I'm not sure, and that's exactly what I'm afraid of. Maybe that's why I cried.
Despite everything, I wish I could turn back the hands of time.
Whatever the reason, I am still curious what things would be like if I could turn back time. Would I be constantly asking myself questions? Would I have cried no more than fifteen minutes ago over a guy I never thought I would ever consider dating? I don't know. I honestly do not know. Maybe I'll never learn the answers to my questions.
Then again, maybe it's a good thing I'm unable to.
- Mood:
crazy
One thing I've learned so far today is when you're woken up at 1am in the morning by a drunken freak, it may be a sign that the rest of the day is not going to go well. And it hasn't been by a long stretch.
For one thing, I turned in my Visual Thinking project at 9am. Sharp. I returned to the classroom around 10:15am and discovered my lovely, little project in the FAILURE pile. (Well, technically, it wasn't a COMPLETE failure. I did receive a "D" on it after all). But still....I can understand that I didn't do so well on it. I will do better the NEXT time around. (It isn't like I don't have plenty of opportunities to improve my grade in that class). However, what I do NOT understand is my professor's need to talk throughout the ENTIRE class time. Hell, I finished reading my James Patterson novel by the end of the class, I was THAT bored. I just couldn't believe it. I mean, that book had over 400 pages in it! And I finished it ALL within the allotted time. Amazing. Simply amazing.
And to make matters worse, I am only running on five hours of sleep at best. Why? Because some drunken freak decided to wake me up around 1am this morning, shouting about quiet hours or whatever else. I was so infuriated by this act, I literally sat up in bed and screamed the following statement at the top of my lungs:
"SHUT THE F*** UP, I'M TRYING TO SLEEP!"
I kid you not, I think the entire hallway could hear me with my door CLOSED. However, this little blonde-haired dimwit was apparently deaf and couldn't hear me, so I opened the door and told her and her little friend to "knock it off." The brunette (the silent one of the two) sincerely apologized and pushed her obnoxious friend back into the dorm room two doors down from me. Much to my relief, the loud screaming finally stopped and I was able to get some shut-eye. If only for a little while.
My statement withstanding, where was the RA when all of this sh*t was going down? Where has she been, anyway? Did she fly to the moon and never tell anybody? Did she simply vanish off the face of the earth? Nobody knows because she hasn't been around, nobody has even seen or heard from her. Which is strange as hell given the circumstances, but I digress. All I know is that if the noise doesn't stop, I'm going to report all of it to the Hall Director of Shaw (or the RA if she ever shows her face) because dealing with it is just rediculous. Period.
So, that has been my day thus far. I just hope it doesn't get any worse. *knocks on wood*
- Mood: aggravated
The shadows that fall
Around me call
Your name, show your face,
In this desolate place
I call 'Home.'
Scared, I reach for you,
Call your name,
But all I hear is silence...
It's always the same.
I toss and turn
And still refuse to learn,
The lesson you've since taught me
That some things are not meant to be seen.
Quickly, I close my eyes,
And try to fight off the lie,
Which makes me believe
That you're right here with me.
Until the break of day,
When your face finally fades,
Into the shadows of the disappearing night,
While everything was still alright.
- Mood:
anxious
Once upon a time I was single and everything made sense. I had tons of money, was rich as hell! I shared interesting times with interesting people and had never heard of video games like BlazeBlue or whatever you want to call it. I was single and things were normal.
But not anymore. Why? Because I'm no longer single, that's why!
In fact, I've been in a relationship for the past two months. And what an interesting two months it has been. Now before you get your panties in a bunch, allow me to explain. *Sighs with relief after seeing your facial expression change* Okay, here we go...
July 3rd, 2009.
I was preparing to sleep in. Hell, my parents were home for the day, so I decided to take full advantage of the fact by sleeping like crazy. However, fate apparently had OTHER plans because around noon, I received a phone call. Now here I was wondering, 'Who the hell is calling me now?!' Still in a sleeping coma, I grab my cell phone and open it; only to discover that it's my dear friend (who is now my boyfriend) on the other end of the line. Wonder what he wants?
"Hey, I finally have my check and I was wondering if you'd like to go to Hagerstown with me today."
Okay, nobody had said ANYTHING about going to Hagerstown. Period. I wasn't supposed to hear from this guy until the following MONDAY; so, what gives? Little did I know I was about to find out.
A few hours later: Location: somewhere between Hagerstown and Bunkerhill.
There I am sitting in his car when out of nowhere, he lowers the car radio and starts asking me out. WTF? Here is a guy who I've known for the past eight years...Asking me out. Okay, this is weird...
To hide my apprehension, I simply tell him to give me a few days to think about it. So, he agrees and leaves me to make my decision. Great.
Three Days Later: 647pm.
I am sitting by my cell phone, debating whether or not to call him. Sure, I could do that and change my summer forever. Then again, I could just leave him hanging like I do to a lot of other guys. Eh, I'll call him. Why the hell not?
So, I call him. And it takes him nearly TWENTY minutes to inquire about his question. When he finally does, I hesitantly tell him that we could, "Try it out and see where it goes." Well, the first four days of our relationship...I don't hear from him. Period. Not one word, phone call, nothing. So, I finally call him and ask him about it. He simply tells me that his family has been visiting so he didn't have time to call me; which is cool, I guess.
But what has happened since is anything but. But that's better left for next time...
For now, I have to go. For Livejournal, I'm out of here! Later, peeps!
- Mood: content
These are some observations I've made from my experience with relationships. Now mind you, I don't have MUCH experience, but the experience I DO have more than qualifies me to write a blog of this magnititude. You'll see why when you read. Enjoy.
1. The car is man's ultimate ally when it comes to getting somewhere and making moves on women.
2. Apparently, it's okay when a guy gossips about what you've done with him because it's all in good fun and nobody gets hurt. (Riigggghhhhtttt.)
3. When you two have nothing better to do, it's normal to go to the mall, walk around while secretly wishing you had enough money to buy EVERYTHING you see.
4. Guys always act nervous when asking a girl out.
5. Men who are innocent know MORE about women than men who are not.
6. Men bite their nails...A lot.
7. All men are insecure?
8. Everybody in the WORLD seemingly forgets how to drive on Fourth of July weekend.
9. Some people kiss worse than dogs.
10. Silence is a normal conversation starter.
11. A man's tone of voice changes around a girl he likes.
12. If a man's voice changes around you, prepare for the shock of a lifetime.
13. Cars=Romance?
14. When the guy's family knows you by your nickname, it is apparently safe to assume the guy has told his family ALL about you!
15. Be careful about what you post on your Myspace and Facebook accounts, as these sites may do more harm to your reputation than good.
16. If the guy is driving the vehicle, the guy will always lower the volume on the car radio before starting a serious conversation (and it obviously doesn't matter whether or not you like the song that is playing).
17. While conducting said serious conversation, the guy will also reach for your hand.
18. All guys secretly talk to themselves, they just won't admit it.
19. Some guys think it's normal to take a woman to a grocery store (i.e Martins) for a lunch date.
20. Men like Gamestop. Period.
21. Some guys believe it is OKAY to take a woman on a date while in another relationship.
22. Looks apparently do not matter; unless you're a famous celebrity or a bikini contestant.
23. The term, "Alone Time," can mean a LOT of different things to a guy!
24. All guys want action in some form or another.
25. Getting the "Silent Treatment" from a guy during the first week of a relationship is NOT normal.
26. If the guy starts clinging to you, chances are he will not let go anytime soon.
And there you have the first twenty-six observations I have made thus far. Care to read more? Well, don't worry, my friends, because more is what you will get within the next few days (hopefully). For LiveJournal, I'm Alliegirl4life. See ya!
Sometimes I cannot help feeling the way I do, especially when it comes to certain people and situations. Although I will not name anybody or any situation at this time, I will say some people need to learn that particular barriers should not and cannot be crossed. These said barriers include sexual orientation, relationships and friendships, and when these barriers are crossed, problems occur. I'm just hoping these problems I'm dealing with right now do not cause more trouble than they are worth.
And I seriously mean that. Apparently, these people I'm dealing with right now can be violent? Yea, I don't know what to make of it, and I certainly hope I won't have to.
Damn, look at the time. I better get going. See ya!
- Mood: shocked
It seems like I've caused my stepmother to give me the silent treatment again, and I did nothing wrong. What the hell is with that crazy woman? Sometimes I wish I could just read her mind; then I could finally know what she really thinks of me. Or do I want to know? Sometimes I truly wonder...
In other news, my relationship is going pretty well from what I can tell. I know this guy cannot get enough of me, and I am starting to feel the same way about him. The strangest thing is that he doesn't have the appearance of a Greek God. Not that there's anything wrong with that. It's just...I don't know. I literally thought I would have fallen for somebody completely different; but I didn't. I've fallen for him, and I'm beginning to wonder if I could ever get back up again.
Also my dog, Rufus, has stopped eating...For the second time now. I really do not know what is wrong with that hound dog. It could be another ulcer in his stomach, or something worse. I'm hoping for the former rather than the latter.
And get this: my former best friend is living in a woman's shelter? That's right; according to what my sister told me over the phone, she sent my former friend (the one I referred to in this livejournal account) to Bethany House in Martinsburg. All I can say is, "Good luck to her in her future endeavors because she's going to need it!"
Well, I'm out of here for now. Later, Livejournal Freaks!
-Alliegirl4life
- Music:"Unforgiven II," by Metallica
"I love you, too." I manage to whisper in return. I then allow him to kiss me, making sure to pull him closer to me. "God, I love it when you kiss me like that."
"Really?" He asks, out of breath. "I'm glad you do." He then kisses me deeply and runs his hands over my body. Before I know it, I'm allowing him to remove my shirt. "You're beautiful, baby." I hear him say to me as he looks down at my bare chest. "Are you sure you're okay with this?"
I look up at him, "Yes, I'm sure. I've never been so sure of anything in my life." I then allow myself to completely surrender to him. The next thing I know, I am lying completely naked next to him, his arms wrapped around me.
"Hey, Shawn."
"Did you say my name?" I ask him. He looks at me, startled and confused.
"No. Why?"
I close my eyes for a second. "Just curious."
"Shawn..."
There it is again! I open my eyes and see nothing but darkness surrounding me. Who is saying my name? The voice sounds familiar...
"Shawn!"
"Baby, are you sure you didn't just say my name?"
"I'm absolutely sure."
"SHAWN!"
Hearing somebody scream my name, I instantly awaken, only to see Hunter staring down at me. "What?"
"Damn, Shawn. Are you always that hard to wake up?"
I look at the clock and sigh; maybe my dream of being with Bret Hart is not meant to be after all.
The End.
A former friend of mine once quoted on her profile: ""If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong...I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you. I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, or your colleague. If you will allow me any of my own wants, or emotions, or beliefs, or actions, then you open yourself, so that some day thes ways of mine might not seem so wrong, and might finally appear to you as right-for me. To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. And in understanding me you might come to prize my differences from you, and, far from seeking to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences." -David Keirsey, author of Please Understand Me II"
W. L. George - “Wars teach us not to love our enemies, but to hate our allies.”
Me: "Things are not as random as they might seem."
Unknown - “People are more violently opposed to fur than leather because it’s safer to harass rich women than motorcycle gangs.”
Robert Southey - “How little do they see what really is, who frame their hasty judgments upon that which seems.”
Me: "If he looks at you, smiles and reaches out his hand, you'd better hope he wants to ONLY hold your hand and not something else!"
Me-in reference to my current relationship-: "If a person approached me seven years ago and said, 'Vikki, seven years from now, the guy who is driving you home from high school is going to ask you out...' I would have laughed in that person's face and referred said person to the nearest psych ward because I would have thought he or she was insane."
William James - “The deepest craving in human nature is the craving to be appreciated.”
Robert E. Wells - “We knew before we came (to earth) that there would be many adverse circumstances to test us: accidents, sickness, and disease to prove us; temptations and distractions to try us; disappointments, discouragements, reverses, failures and all kinds of situations to determine our character.”
Unknown - “You can tell what a man is by what he does when he hasn’t anything to do.”
Me: "If it is meant to be, it will work its little ass off to find a way!"
Me: "All enemies have one thing in common: they were once somebody's friend."
I suppose only time will tell if this guy will make the effort to call me and come see me. Then again, doesn't time tell us everything we want to know? Maybe not for everybody, but it certainly does for me. I just hope this time is no different from any other.
Me: "Sometimes the rabbit hole truly is much deeper than we expect it to be."
I enter his car as a million thoughts bombard my mind. Maybe if I had said, "No, I can't go with you to Hagerstown," I probably wouldn't be preparing myself for the inevitible. But I am, and there's nothing I can do about it. Slowly, he puts his car into gear and we drive towards town.
Fast forward to about three hours later; we are leaving Hagerstown mall when he suddenly lowers the volume to the car radio. Oh no, I think silently, here we go. I carefully listen as he says to me in a tender tone of voice, "Vikki, I want to ask you something. You know, we've been friends for a really long time and I really do like you..." Oh god, are you kidding me? No, he's not going this route...He can't be! Gripping my soda bottle with a vengeance, I sit in silence as he prepares to do the unthinkable. "I have liked you for a while and I was wondering, would you like to go out with me?" My jaw inwardly drops, my eyes stare at the windshield and the world facing it as my mind goes blank. Did he just ask me what I think he did?
"You mean, like as in girlfriend and..."
"Yes," he says, placing his hand on top of mine. "Would you like to be my girlfriend?" My heart skips a beat. Since when did this guy start liking me? Hell, I've known him for the past eight years, so why now? Bracing myself even more, I ask the question that is bothering me.
"Terry, how long have you liked me?"
He looks at me and says, "I have for about two years now." He then tells me how he had small feelings for me since I was a freshman in high school! And how those feelings suddenly intensified when I crossed paths with him while he was dating his ex. My jaw is now agape as I continue to listen to him. This just...Can't be possible.
But it is possible, isn't it? He really is asking me out in his car...On the way back from Hagerstown. I should have known something was up when he bought me a $58 ring in Williamsport two hours ago! Damn it! I should have figured it out, but I didn't. And here I am preparing my best defense yet. He finally lets go of my hand as I think my words over carefully. I need to make my point crystal clear, otherwise, this guy isn't going to take the hint that I TAKE MY TIME...Period. "Terry, I have been hurt in the past...Greatly. I don't know why I felt the way I did or why I was hurt so badly, but I'm not the one to jump into stuff. I..."
"You take your time," he interrupts, finishing my statement. I nod.
"Yes, exactly. Just give me a few days to think about it and I'll give you my decision."
And here I am still pondering my decision whether or not to date this guy. I still cannot believe this actually happened. Was it supposed to happen? Well, here's proof that it actually was.
Some time before arriving home, he said, "I was going to ask you out at Carlisle, but you were talking to Scott and stuff, so I decided not to." WOW! So, that's why he was acting strangely at Carlisle. Well, that explains a LOT in my book.
"Really?" Is all I can ask as I feel the initial shock start to settle in my system.
"Yes." He says. The rest of the conversation goes without a hitch and here I am, gazing at this ring on my finger and wondering what I should do.
Should I take his proposal and run with it? Or should I just run away and forget all about it? Only time will tell the tale.
-
"The Pain."
I feel the pain,
The torture, the shame,
It follows me,
Yet nobody sees it except me.
It lurks in my shadow,
The shadow of my past,
It never seems to go away,
It only lasts.
Maybe if I stand in the light
Just right,
It might disappear.
But only if you shine the light
On me,
And make everything alright
Once again.
***
"Finally Become Me."
Once upon a time,
I was Me.
I was naive, strong,
And I was care-free,
But not anymore.
Now I am somebody else,
I am a Stranger.
I look in the mirror
And all I see are eyes filled with
Anger.
I see a face ashen-white,
Cheeks drenched with tears,
My teeth clinching together
Because of my deepest fears.
My clothes soaked with sweat,
From the nightmares which plague me.
These bags underneath my eyes,
Due to the lack of sleep.
I see a woman emotionally torn,
A heart broken beyond repair,
But these can only show
If I desire to share...
But I won't, I can't,
Not after everything you put me through.
And just to think,
I was willing to do anything for you.
If only this mirror staring me in the face
Could show the world what I see,
Then this stranger, this woman,
Might finally become Me.
- Mood:
artistic
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